I miss my cup of coffee

Yesterday morning I met Nung at the airport. It was nice to see her again. She told me about one of our friend named Poo. She just has lost her dad yesterday. Her dad passed away by high blood pressure. His blood vessel in his brain had something blocked his blood so that made them broke. And he is too old to have the operation. That’s sad. I just called her. Everything passed so fast. I mean it very easy to die because for all human the end of our life is the death but for our Christian life, we have no end. We will have the eternal life with Jesus. That’s the great news. It’s good because when someone in our family dies then we will sure that we will see each other again.

That’s just reminding me about Buddhism. Some of them believe that when they die they will be born again and some of them they believe that when they die it will be the end and just empty. One of my friends she didn’t believe in eternal life. She said she believe that the death is the end. This thing is the wall for her to knowing God. If I have a chance to talk to her about this again, I pray that God will take this thing away. I want her to begin to know God by Love. I want her to know that Love is from God and Love makes Christian to be difference.

The 40 days of fasting gone. I’ve fast coffee but now I’m back to be the coffee drinker again. I tried to think is it working for fasting and praying. But some of my prayers, God doesn’t answer yet. But God told me something during that time though. Actually I’ve missed coffee so much but I know that I’m not addicted to it. (I think?!)

Luncheon! Yum yum...

Yesterday on the way to work I saw two Farang monks walked by their bare feet across the road. I think that’s weird. I mean, I want to know what they think and why they designed to be the monk. I really want to take a picture of them.

I met my old friend form university last night. May, she want her friend to speak English so she asked me to find the farang to teach her friend. So I’ve asked Rebecca to do it. Last night we kinds talked about several things. I don’t know that Rose (May’s friend) understood or not. I think it will be the good way to build the relationship with them. Praw gave birth on last Tuesday (December 6^th 2005). Everyone said Nicole is so cute and it was the same date that Pii Joom had the operation for her appendicitis.

Today at the school they have the luncheon for all the staffs. That gonna be fun.

I love my King!

I've read the royal word from our king. He's so smart. He knows everything, even small deep thing that happened with our country. He said he didn't want to blame anyone but he can just said something to president to terminated all the problems. Because after that day the president just withdraw all the accusations those he has with Sontii. How's great? So everything's done! I mean it should be done. But it's not. Let's see how's going to be...

Update!

Yesterday I got the card from Pii David about he knew that I’m going to move back to Bangkok from Khun Bruce. He was sad when he knew that. I kinda don’t want to tell everybody yet because it’s a long way to go there. I’m a little bit worried about go back home in this New Year. I don’t know what my dad want me to do, actually I don’t know that what my heavenly father want me to do. I pray that either way that I will do to helping my dad with his business or to finding a new job, God will bless me. I will be blessed by work that I will do and my family will see how much God bless me.
I will be here for Christmas because I'm a director for the kid's skit. It is fun to spend time with Dek Dek. They are so cute. I really don't want to leave them. That's sad...

Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire

Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire

I went to see Harry Potter and the goblet of fire last night with my friend. It’s good movie. It’s not really impressed me. I think because I didn’t read the book. So I’m not being into this movie. Last two nights had been very bad nights for one of my friend. I really don’t know how to help. But I know that God is helping him. I want him to know God so much. I know that it’s quite difficult for him to do this on his own but he can do this by God’s power. I don’t know that he can see God’s love that I’ve pass to him or not? I don’t know what God want me to do next. I think it’s almost done and it’s almost start. God you told me “Don’t worry”. But I love him so much so I can not be happy, when he sad. I thank you, Father. You let all these things happened. I know that You have the reason for him and I can see that You are working in his heart.

Haley, Noon, Jing, Zen, Gade, Neung, Jit

Group picture

Last weekend we went to Weang-Kam-Fa Resort for woman retreat. That was fun. 28 ladies went there. We have the lesson, worship time and lots of fun time together. I posted a couple pictures from camp here.

Be With you

Mio and Taku

With their little son "Yu-ji"

I watched this movie last night. It's a great movie. I love it. It's a very romance movie. I cried almost of the time. I copied story to paste down here.

When two souls find one anoter , nothing can tear them apart. Widower Takumi (Shidou Nakamura) lives a quiet life with his six-year-old son Yuji (Akashi Takei) after the loss of wife and mother Mio (Yuko Takeuchi). Yuji unfailingly remembers her promise to him: "I'll be with you again in a year's time, when the rains come." On the first anniversary of her passing, Takumi and Yuji are taking a walk in the woods when they come across a woman sheltering from a monsoon downpour. She bears an uncanny resemblance to Mio, but has no recollection of who she is or what she is doing there. Family life resumes from where they left off, while Takumi and Mio's memories of their first encounter in high school come flooding back. However, their new life together is interrupted by the discovery of Mio's old diary, which reveals the secrets of her past and how they must say goodbye once more in six weeks time...


http://www.tbs.co.jp/movie/english/bewithyou/#tore
http://www.bewithyou.co.kr/

TRAILERS :
http://www.tbs.co.jp/movie/english/bewithyou/mov/medi.asx

It teaches me how to leave my life when I know I have just a little time left to be on this earth.

They need God

Sometime we’re not really known which one is God’s will. I think if I choose to do something and I feel peace and God bless me, which is God’s will. It’s so hard to make the decision when either ways are good. But I think it must have just one way which is the best way for me. I think I really want to stay here in Chiang Mai with my Family in Christ but what about my real family. They need God. They need someone to tell them about God. If I still be here in Chiang Mai, they won’t know God. I love them so much and I want to see them in the heaven. I will feel very guilty, if even I go to the heaven and they can’t. I want to go back to stay with my family in Bangkok. I want my Dad to take a rest, he work so hard to make money for me, my sister and my brother for many years already. I think it almost time to helping him. I want everyone that read my blog right now, please pray for me. Plan that I made in my mind is I will go back home in the end of this school year. But if GIS still need me to train other Thai to do my work I will work here for a while to train them. I think let God prepare for all others thing.

Dear Heavenly Father, please prepare me for now, how to tell my family about your good news. How to express Your love to my dad and my family. I have not much time to prepare, I know that I cannot do this on my own but I can do this by your power and by your love. Thank you God for loving me. In powerful name, Jesus.

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แป้ง กะ อาร์ต

รอยยิ้มแห่งความชื่นชมยินดี

บางครั้งคำอธิษฐานของเราที่เราพยายามอธิษฐานหลายครั้ง จนเราคิดว่าพระเจ้าจะไม่ตอบเราแล้ว แต่ในที่สุดพระเจ้าก็ตอบโดยที่เราในเวลาไม่ได้คาดหวังไว้เลย ก็ขอบคุณพระเจ้าจริงๆที่พระองค์เป็นพระเจ้าที่ซื่อสัตย์เสมอ ขอบคุณสำหรับชีวิตของแป้ง ในที่สุดเขาก็ตัดสินใจอยากจะรับบัพติสมา ขอพระเจ้าทรงปกป้องจิตใจเขาด้วยในเวลานี้ ขออย่าให้มารมันทำงานในเวลานี้ แต่ขอให้พระเจ้าทำงานอย่างเต็มที่
การที่คนคนหนึ่งถูกปิดหู ปิดตา หรือปิดความรู้สึกโดยมาซาตานมาโดยตลอด มันเป็นสิ่งที่ยากที่จะทำให้เขาได้รู้จักพระเจ้า บางครั้งเราก็เครียดเกินไปที่ความรักที่เรามอบให้เขานั้นยังไม่เกิดผลอะไร เรารู้สึกสงสารเขาที่เขาจมอยู่กับความบาป และไม่สามารถออกมาได้ด้วยตัวเอง มันก็ต้องเป็นอย่างงั้นอยู่แล้วแหล่ะ เพราะเขาต้องการพระเจ้า ถ้าเขาไม่มีพระเจ้าก็ไม่สามารถหลุดพ้นจากตรงนั้นได้ เราก็ได้แต่อธิษฐานและให้กำลังใจเขาซึ่งไม่รู้ว่าจะเป็นไปได้หรือเปล่า แต่พระเจ้าก็บอกว่าสำหรับพระองค์นั้น ทุกสิ่งทุกอย่างเป็นไปได้เสมอ เราก็ได้แต่รอคอยดูด้วยความเชื่อ พระเจ้าพระองค์อาจจะทำงานอยู่และเราก็เป็นเพียงแค่มนุษย์ที่ไม่ค่อยฉลาดเท่าไหร่ ไม่รู้เลยว่าพระองค์ทำอะไรอยู่ ผลของคำอธิษฐานอาจจะมาอย่างที่เราไม่คาดคิดมาก่อนเลยก็ได้

Holy is The Lord

We stand and lift up our hands

For the joy of the Lord is our strength

We bow down and worship Him now

How great, how awesome is He

And together we sing

Everyone sing

Holy is the Lord God Almighty

The earth is filled with His glory

Holy is the Lord God Almighty

The earth is filled with His glory

The earth is filled with His glory

We stand and lift up our hands

For the joy of the Lord is our strength

We bow down and worship Him now

How great, how awesome is He

And together we sing

Everyone sing

Holy is the Lord God Almighty

The earth is filled with His glory

Holy is the Lord God Almighty

The earth is filled with His glory

The earth is filled with His glory

It's rising up all around

It's the anthem of the Lord's renown

It's rising up all aroud It's the anthem of the Lord's renown

And together we sing Everyone sing

Holy is the Lord God Almighty

The earth is filled with his glory

Holy is the Lord God Almighty

The earth is filled with his glory

the earth is filled with his glory

Holy Holy is the Lord Almighty

Holy HolyHoly Holy is the Lord Almighty

Holy Holy Holy Holy is the Lord Almighty

Holy Holy Holy Holy is the Lord Almighty Holy Holy

This song is stuck on my mind, it comes from Hume Lake Camp.

Song by Chris Tomlin
From Arriving
Name Holy is the Lord

Something

Our Team
We are the Champion!
Rachel, Mallory, Bethany
Mallory, Asia, Rachel

Today is the first day at school after fall break over, we had many network problems. But now everything is ok. I went to Hume Lake Christian Camp for counseling. I went for the middle school one. It was fun. The kids were in my cabin are so nice. I really like them. We are the Champion from all recreation things too. They were very proud of their group. The chapel time was so good.
Young-Pro Cell group decided to have a trip for our group. I don’t know yet where? But it will be a great trip for sure. I need to find a place. Pii Nui and Matt are here in Thailand, I think they are in Pii Nui’s hometown now.

Homesick!

Have you ever felt homesick? I’m really is now. I feel like I want to go to stay at home. I don’t why it happened because it never happens before. I just felt it is ok to be far away from home, from my family. But now I miss my dad, my sister and my brother so bad. I tried to find the cheap flight to go back home but I don’t know it is good decision or not. I don’t want to waste my money. If I’m not going back this time, I might to wait till the end of this year. So it will be around 9 weeks. I think I might have to wait. I will pray about that. Hume Lake Camp might help me to not miss my home too much because of many activities.
Dear Heavenly Father, Please help me to do not miss my home too much and Father please give me peace and joy with all the thing that will be happen in next few days even from Camp or from people around me, especially from You. Thank you , Lord to give me this feeling.

Great day

Asia buptized!

Ben Buptized!

I was very happy yesterday. I think it was a great day for Todd family. Their both kids got baptized in the same day. First Ben made the decision first then Asia did after. I asked Ben why he wants to get baptized he said he doesn’t want to go where you know what that is when he pass away. He wants to be sure where he will go after that. Is that cool? I was very happy to know that. For Asia it was very hard for her to make this decision because we waited for her to make this decision for long time. Yesterday was filled full with joy and glad from both of them. Thank you Lord for this great blessed day.

Happy Birthday to Me!!

Today is my special day. Today is my birthday so I just want to write something special will make me remind of this day. Last night I went to Pii Pat’s house then I was surprised by the chocolate cake from Pii Gade. That was nice and this morning I was surprised by my department. Sam and Jeremy went out to buy me some donut to cerebrate in our room. Last night after I had dinner at Pii Pat’s house. Tonight I went to have ice-cream at Swensen with Ryan, Pii Ning and Rebecca. So Happy birthday to ME!!

Jesus hates sins but loves sinners

I don’t know what I should do to help one of my friends to know God more. I don’t know that God is telling me something or not. I don’t know?!?! I started one book that I was very interesting with and I pray for my friend who is struggle with that issue. I’m very concerned about him and I want him to know God. That’s book said it’s really have to start with the relationship with God. So I know that is the first thing to do pray that he will open his heart to know God and love God. So, how to help that thing to happen? That is hard.” Jesus hates sins but loves the sinners” I like this sentence, I think it come from the bible somewhere. I love him but I hate the way he live his life. I hate Satan. He made many sins to be normal things in world eyes right now. The people cannot see what they do is wrong or not, but they think that if the way they do it not effect to others, that’s not sin.

Disaster

Lot of disasters happened on this world right now and they took a bunch of life. Many people passed away. The earthquake that just happened in Pakistan was so bad. I read the news it said more than 30000 people dead. That’s sad. Many bad things happen regularly like earthquake storm and flood in everywhere. That’s sad. But we need to hear what God’s trying to say to us. He might want us to do something to show people His grace. Let’s pray for those people who loss their family. Pray for Christian who is working to help all these victims that they will know God’s glory by Christian who help them.

I moved back to the church on Friday. That was good to be back here at the church. Healey is moving in soon, that was she said.

New Thumb Drive

My thumb drive broke that is the bad sign. I just got the new one. I bought it 995 baht for 256 MB with the same brand apacer. I still don’t know what wrong with my old thumb drive. I bought that one for 1600 baht and it got 128 Mb. I think I bought it like 2 years ago. Is that because it got too old? I don’t think so. But the worse I don’t know what’re in there. I cannot remember. I finished the blog for young-pro cell group now. I had to make two blogs for English and for Thai. It took me for a while because Thai language is difficult. I can speak more than write with the right grammar now. I read my friend blog in Thai that is perfect Thai. I think because I speak Thai to Farang to much and I have to use the simple words so that make me not used to use the high words. I talked to Ying last night. She is the same. I mean the way that she talks in Thai. She will come to visit again in January. That’s so good. I want her to be my roommate again. She said she want to come back to stay here in Chaing Mai. We will pray about that more.

Thailer

One of our friends named Mam, she gave birth last night. Her baby is so cute. His name is Thailer. I was there when she almost gave birth. That was very hurt, I can tell. She said many times that she want the operation way not the natural way. She said that she cannot bear anymore. But she did. She already gave birth by the natural way. That was the great story last night. The baby is strong and big. His weight is 3.8 kilograms. I pray that Tyler will be in Your hands and pray for Mam and her mom that they will have the right way and best way to raise the baby. I pray that they will have enough money to raise Thailer.

Seven Swords

I went to see movie last night but I didn’t expect to do that. Neung called me to go out with him and I didn’t see him for many days so I did decide to go out with him to see the movie. We went to see “Seven Swords”. It’s Chinese’s movie. It’s violent movie. You can see person have no head on this movie. All Chinese movies are this style. I didn’t see Chinese movie in the theater for along time so I think it good to see it again. I think this movie have too many characters. So when the movie finished, I couldn’t remember even one name in that movie.

Pii Poe and 7th Scene

Pii Poe Yokee Playboy

7th Scene

Tamp

Group picture

I’ve met my friend from high school on Saturday. Tamp came to do the concert for Elle and Elle Décor cerebration with Pii Poe Yokee Playboy. His band name is 7th scene. I think he look like the same in the past. I talked to him a little bit and I got the chance to take a picture with Pii Poe. I was watching Tamp sang. He was good. His band is doing great too. I took a couple of video shots and some pictures. I hoped I could talk to him more but I couldn’t. So now I hope to see him again.

Pii Ning and Ryan's wedding

Cute picture

Bride and Groom

Our Family

Wedding is busy!

We went to Ryan and Ning’s wedding on Saturday. I drove over to Phare on Friday with Pii Joom, Tommy, Pii Made and Gahn. That was good. On Friday night at Pii Ning’s house they had the party for her parent’s friends at her house. I think that night it was around 50-60 people over there. When we got there then we need to wait till the party finish. Then we went to direct Ryan’s family van back to their hotel. We got back we got to sleep. We had to wake up early in the morning to go to the wedding rehearsal. Then we went to try the dress. After that everything was very busy Pii Ning started to make up and do her hair at 1.30pm so the make-up artist had no time to do for the bridesmaids and Pii Ning’s mom. We had to go out to get make up and do our hair. The wedding ceremony supposed to start at 3pm but they had to wait for us to finish. So the wedding started at 3.20pm. After that everything was going well. There was some mistake happened but they all already passed. I will show the pictures after. We got back on Sunday that made me tried and I went to Central Midnight Sale that night too. Monday morning I was much tried. Now I’m ok but need some coffee. On Sunday when I went to get my hair cut I met my old friend from CMU. He got the coffee shop in front of the salon shop. That was good to talk to him

How cute our kids are...

I'm sorry

I have to do many things after I finish my work today. I’m a little bit excited about driving to Phare on Friday. It is 201 Kilometers. I think it will tale 3-4 hours to drive there. Last week I felt weird about something. I don’t know how to explain that feeling. I felt sad and upset and I wanted to cry but I didn’t. I didn’t want to feel like that because I knew that is sin. I don’t think that that person will know my feeling at that time. I just want to say sorry to You. I will try to do not feel like that again. I need to think like what others want not what I want. Because if I think like what I want that will be the selfishness. Father, you’ve said you always love us and even though I did something wrong and I confess to you. You will forgive me.
Thank you, God for loving me and always be by my side.

No time to get away from people

Last night we had the bridal shower for Pii Ning, who’s going to get marriage next Saturday. It’s like Thai style for this party. The bridal shower for real, it’s not like this. The best part that I really liked last night was the food. Pii Mink is the best chef for me. The foods that she made last night are so great. That was good last night. At R&R’s house have many things Ginger and Heather got back to stay at their house. I think I need to move so Pii Boom has asked me to stay with her. I will stay with her for a while and they will have some people come to sleep over at her house on Friday. That’s funny, when I tried to get away from people then more people come up. Is this from God? He might teach me now how to stay with people. I know that I cannot do like this if I want to work with the church because I have to stay with people.
Another problem that I've found is “Why am I forgetful like this?” I’ve found my thumb drive in my backpack. I thought I lost it somewhere else.

Something really changed

I think now it has something changed a little bit in my life. That’s good for me. When we confess our sin more that make us like not holding everything by ourselves and for me I feel like some one help me to get through this together.

Normal for today

I’m moving around again now. The reason is the church has no water. I don’t know that good or not but I’m at R&R’s house. I might be able to make the relationship with Nakita now. She is the a little bit mean fat cat. I tried to be friend with her but she doesn’t want to have any friend. I feel tried every day I got back from work. I think there are many things to do. I didn’t finish all things yet but soon. There was the rumor about the flash flood will come to our school yesterday. I don’t know who did that first but that was something that I don’t like. But I have to forgive him and pray for him, right? Because he doesn’t know what he did? Lots of traffic now for the graduation ceremony week. That make me didn’t go to join CMU cellgroup last night.

Flood in Chiang Mai

I didn’t update this blog for long time. I’m a little bit busy at the school. Today is the third day of school. I want to blog about the flood in Chiang Mai. It happened on Sunday 14th August. That was impossible for the resident here. Because they been here for 30 – 40 years, they said they’ve not see the flood in Chiang Mai before. I think like that too but it happened. The flash flood was come from the Ping River with lot of water. I passed the super highway road on that day. That was a mess and water is brown. Everything is all right now. The flood left much dirt in all the building that it passed. Many people now have to clean up their home or their shop. I want to pray that God will give them joy and peace now because some of them lose many things.

That was nice and fun!

I went to the Mae-Ngud dam with my friends from my work place. Actually I didn't expect that I could go there. I just decided immediately around 11 am. and I heard that they would leave around 12 at noon. My boss told me I should go with them and I didn't want to just leave the school because if someone has problem with the computer then who will help them. So I decided to stay and let my boss went there and I will follow him but finally we waited till we could contact to my Thai boss to ask for permission then we went together. That was fun and very relax over there. I glad that I could go there. We were in the middle of a lot of mountains around us. Is that cool? I want to go there again. That made me need to have the digital camera soon...
It's rainning all day!!

Clear Jring Jring!

Yes! Finally it's clear!
I saw this picture and I think about when I die, Will I be like this man? Sometime when I think about the sins those I’ve been doing will make me far away from God. That’s so true. When we do something that is sin and we don’t want to think about God because we don’t want God at that time. I don’t want to do that. I always hate myself when I did something that I know that God doesn’t like me to do that. I am sad after I done it. Right now I try to hate the thing that I did before and think that’s disgusting. That’s work! That’s make me don’t want to do it anymore. So I know that it because the way I think. In the past I always though that if I did some think wrong, God will forgive me and He always has mercy on me. But now when I think that God is so high and I’m just a human down here on the earth and if I did something wrong that will make the space between me and God getting bigger and we won’t see each other again. Thank you, God that you always waiting for me even though sometime I just don’t want to see You but You just wait for me that same place. That always because of me makes us to be far away.
In this Summer I want to thank you so much that you use one of my friends to draw me close to you. The way that I took care of her that make me grow and make me to pray more. School almost starts, that make me a little bit scare because many things have to be done. God help me please!

Something clearly!

I think it’s just nothing! I didn’t feel like that for real. I think because of many things going on that made me confused. Now I’m fine but tried because thinking too much. I've talked to Lisa last night. That made me think about to go to study in the state more now. I want o have a master degree. I don’t know what my dad will say but I really want too. Let’s pray about that. Yes, some time it's really hard to think about the future that we cannot see. But if we think about the people that didn't know God and didn't know how to trust in Him they will be think harder than us. I want everyone to know God. Last night was so good, three people got buptize. Nong Nui and the couple who we just met last night. Is that cool? I will post the picture in a few days. I want to have the digital camera so bad!!

Your will Not My will

I lose my weight again, I couldn’t believe that. I just not really eat for one day but I lost weight for 2 kgs. That’d not good. I still confuse now but everything is getting better. I think God just want me to be patient wait for His answer even though it’s hurt for me now. I don’t know why it happened to me and I never think this feeling will happen to me. I already have wall for this situation. God please fill peace in me and I want the relationship to be just the same in the past but it’s up to your will, Lord. Not my will!! Not what I want.

Doi Inthanon Pic!

The kids, we have met on the way to Doi Inthanon.


We went to Doi Inthanon on Friday. That was fun and cold. I didn't update blog for a long time. I will move again. Everything will go back the same. I'm not ready yet to stay at the church. I just still want quite place but I will try.
I just got the great news form Pii Joom. Noon want to get baptize tomorrow. Is that the good new? Let's pray for her to be strong in the journey with the Lord.

Fasting day

Have you ever get really tried? I did and I just want to turn my switch off but couldn’t do that. I though so hard yesterday about the idea that I had and I really want that to be the God’s will. So we try to pray hard today to know the answer that what is the God’s will for her? I know that it will have the problem both of the way but this situation will make me to grow closer to you. Now I realized that I didn’t pray much for last 5 months. Someday I just forget to pray and I don’t want to do that after I knew one of my friends more, She need You and she need my pray. She made me to realize more about myself. I really want to take care of her. I just tried for one day and it very tried. I know that because of I did take care of her without pray. I need to pray more. God help me know how can I help her to be strong in You. I want you to help me to be strong enough to take care of her too.

Sometime we don’t know witch one is the God’s will even though we know that if it God’s will He will bless us so much with that way. I think if my opinion is the God’s will I hope that our God will prepare us everything. May He prepare me with the power form you. I need your help I cannot do this by myself but I can do this through you.

Great Answer!

Question: "Why does God allow evil events to take place - such as September 11th in the United States or July 7th in England?"

Answer: On September 11th, 2001 and July 7th, 2005 - God was exactly where He always is – in Heaven in total control of everything that happens in the universe. Why, then, would a good and loving God allow such tragedies to happen? This is a more difficult question to answer. First, we must remember, “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts” (Isaiah 55:9). It is impossible for us finite human beings to understand the ways of an infinite God (Romans 11:33-35). Second, we must realize that God is not responsible for the wicked acts of evil men. The Bible tells us that humanity is desperately wicked and sinful (Romans 3:10-18,23). God allows human beings to commit sin because if He were to prevent it, the human race would not truly be free. Sometimes we think we understand why God is doing something, only to find out later that it was for a different purpose than we originally thought.

God looks at things from an eternal perspective. We look at things from an earthly perspective. Why did God put man on earth knowing that Adam and Eve would sin and therefore bring evil, death, and suffering on all mankind? Why didn’t He just create us all and leave us in Heaven where we would be perfect and without suffering? The best answer I can come up with is this: God didn’t want a race of robots who did not have a free will. God had to allow the possibility of evil for us to have a true choice of whether to worship God or not. If we never had to suffer and experience evil, would we truly know how wonderful Heaven is? God did not create evil, but He allowed it. If He hadn’t allowed evil, we would be worshipping Him out of obligation, not by a choice of our own free will.

When thinking of September 11th and July 7th, we tend to forget the thousands of miracles that occurred on those day. On September 11th, literally thousands of people were not at work for wide varieties of strange reasons. Hundreds of people were able to flee the buildings just in the nick of time. The passengers on Flight 92 defeating the terrorists was a miracle in and of itself. On July 7th, there are hundreds of people who decided to take an alternate route to work. At least two bombs failed to detonate. Yes, September 11th and July 7th were terrible days. Sin reared its ugly head and caused great devastation. However, God is still in control. He prevented those days from being as bad as they could have been. Since September 11th, how many lives have been changed for the better? How many people have placed their faith in Christ for salvation as a result of what happened? The words of Romans 8:28 should always be in our minds when we think of 9-11 or 7-7, “And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.”


From: www.gotquestions.org GotQuestions.org

Delirious!

Have you ever been very happy? Every people have
the difference situation to be delirious. I like to go shopping, I think it make me happy. It’s just the thing that human do. Human always do thing that sometime it have no benefit in their life but they will getting better at that time but not all the time. I try to change that thing because I do that a lot when I get in to the bad mood. Sometime when I get better I look back and ask myself “why should I do that?” then I have the answer I still be the human, I could not scarify like You.
I like the sermon that David gave us on last Sunday. He said we will get the salvation by believe in Christ but not just believe that Jesus is the Christ but believe in everything that you tell us to do. So it’s not easy, it’s very hard.
“He has made me glad” is the song that I just listened to just now. I really like it. This song tells me that God is the one to make me glad because he is the one that give me everything. If I have no you I have nothing today.




Delirious?
Did You Feel The Mountains Tremble?Did you feel the mountains tremble?
Did you hear the oceans roar?
When the people rose to sing of
Jesus Christ the risen one
Did you feel the people tremble?
Did you hear the singers roar?
When the lost began to sing of
Jesus Christ the risen one
And we can see that God you're moving
A mighty river through the nations
And young and old will turn to Jesus
Fling wide your heavenly gates
Prepare the way of the risen Lord
Open up the doors and let the music play
Let the streets resound with singing
Songs that bring your hope
Songs that bring your peace
Dancers who dance upon injustice
Did you feel the darkness tremble?
When all the saints join in one song
And all the streams flow as one river
To wash away our brokeness
And here we see that God you're moving
A time of Jubilee is coming
When young and old return to Jesus
Fling wide your heavenly gates
Prepare the way of the risen Lord

Help others first

I never see people that lower that me before in the past. Last sunday I went to the blind school and I saw the kids, they cannot see. It's make me feel very sad. I want everyone to see the people that lower than us then think how can we help them to have more than they have right now because everyone see just themselve. How can they get higher? Like my dad...

Not Enough!

“Just think to be higher than what you are now, I want you to get something better that this.” I cannot understand my dad, everything are not enough for him. I know that if someone who doesn’t know the purpose of your life that will be sad because they won’t know the word “enough”. They want to get high then when you high you want to get higher. I tried for this thing. God, my Lord please helps my dad to understand life more and to know you more. I don’t want to argue with him. I want to be honor him and I want to honor you too.

The purpose of our life

My car is in the process of fixing. I don’t know when it will be fixed and how much it will cost. Tao-Hoo is so funny. He likes the poodle, she is our neighbor. He always goes to sit at her house beside her even though she is in the case. Tao-Hoo is too big for her. Why he doesn’t know that. It’s hard to get him to come back home right now. I still have many things to do in this break. They had to change the plan for rebuild my office because they found the beam while the drilled the entrance.
Sometime it is very hard to focus on the thing I read. Especially when I read bible, I cannot focus on that. God I really want to have the concentrate when I doing something especially when I have quite time. I want to focus in what God want me to do and what God tried to tell me. Father please gives me the wisdom that come from you and helps me to concentrate when I have the time with you. I will try to have you to be the first of my life. I know this is the best important thing. I also know what the purpose of our life but we still have the purpose in our mind not the same as the purpose that we should have.
The purpose that we should have is to be like Jesus as you created us to be.

Something change!

I know that there are something change here. I don't know what is my future be like but I know that is the God's plan and God promised me that He always give me the best thing. I know that You never leave me but I always forget you. I want to give you all I have but that is very difficult. Please make me to know your love more. I want to make my feeling to know sure that you really love me.
God, Please take control of our department!

...

Nothing is special today. I feel a little bit tried because I slept late last night. I think I always get in to the movie when I watch it every time I feel tried after that. Mr. & Mrs. Smith are very good last night.

So sorry for myself

I don’t like myself. I just a human. Sometime I know that is the sin but I do it. That is bad, right? I want to go away from this world when I did something wrong. God, you know what the purpose that why I am here. I am so sorry. I want you to forgive me, don’t be mad at me. Please love me. I want to know more your love. I want to be with you, I don’t want you to turn your face away from me. Please remind me always about you Son, Jesus. Let me know more about how Your Son dies for me.
I got the new boss, Sam. I think we can do it. I been pray for Keith and I think you know the future plan for him, so let do whatever you want. I will trust you.

Farewell for my best manager.

Today is the lastday for school. I though that it will be really busy but that's fine not really busy. My boss is in Bangkok now. Last night, David, Rebecca's dad shared his story. I really like the story that he shared about the bible. The books like the fish, fish has bone so when we eat we have to spit out the bone but the bible is not like that. When we eat the fish we have to swallow hard the bone. That's right. It's really good lesson.
I have the really sad news. Keith is not gonna be the manager any more. I'm sad because he didn't tell me anything I just know from Sam. I don't know what to do without him. God you let this thing happened? I don't know what you mean?

I am here now!

This morning was a crazy day because we needed to move the sever then everything couldn't get back on for a while but everything is ok now. Today is Friday and tomorrow is my weekend. I don't have to prepare the children for this week. Is that cool? I mean I can have more time to do something on Saturday. Interns are coming tomorrow, we still don't know what time they will arrive here exactly but we will know soon. I stay at P’Noi’s home now. It’s very nice to be here because it closes to the school. I don’t have to see everyone on everyday. That’s a little bit weird to say this. Sometime I don’t want to see anybody or many people there at my place but I have too. I need sometime to stay away with the people. However I am here on the world that God created to stay with the people.

A bit time for free

I don't have much time now, I don't know why? But now I have a short time to blog this. I decided to quit for teaching children on Sunday but I still don't know who else can teach. I feel like I don't want to trust anybody. So I think about to prepare the children class for the future after the intern gone. I might be doing that. I need your help God, give me the way that you want me to do. If I quit, I feel useless. I do nothing. I know that not true. I need a bit rest. I think I can do it. Let me pray about that for a while then we will see what God want me to do. :)

Kingdom of Heaven

I didn’t blog for long time because I didn’t have time to do it. Last week I was really busy because my boss kept me real busy. I was surprise that many of my friends are leaving now. Olie left yesterday (May 5th), Julia leave on next Thursday (May 12th) and Tim and Misty leave in the middle of next month. That’s sad.
Yesterday I went to see Kingdom of Heaven. It’s good movie because it made me to want to know more about the history of the crusade war. I think if I’m not Christian now I won’t understand this movie at all. I really like the King of Jerusalem because even thought he was the king but he got the leprosy. I think at that time God was crying. It’s not the way to do the war for God’s willing. God doesn’t want the war for sure but some time in the past he helped the Jew people to get the victory always. But for the crusade war they fight for the kingdom of heaven, the fight for Jerusalem. They just want the land that be belong to the people of God.
I have many comments for this movie but I think I will better to explain in Thai.

God had a problem.

Lots of people say they believe in God, but they don’t really know who he is.
Suppose one day a little girl named Abbey walked past the place where you live.“Someone must live there,” she thinks to herself.And she would be right - YOU live there! But then suppose she thought you had long, pointy ears, and yellow teeth, and furry feet; and that you hated dogs; and all you did was sit around all day eating ice cream and playing video games.
That wouldn’t be you at all!....except maybe for the video games part.
That is sort of God’s problem.
People see the moon and the stars and they think, “Someone must live there!” And they would be right. God does.But then they get all kinds of different ideas about who God is.And most of those ideas aren’t really who God is at all.
Abbey and her friends might sit around at lunch and talk about the person who lives in the place where you live, and in one way they all are right. Someone DOES live there. But if Abbey thinks you have furry feet, and one of her friends thinks you are just a kid who likes to play basketball, they aren’t really talking about the same person at all.
That’s how it is for God.People say they believe in God. But what if one person thinks that God is the all-loving, all-powerful person who created everything there is. Then another person thinks that God is an old man with a white beard sitting up in a cloud somewhere. And then another person thinks that God is the statue of a cat he has sitting on his dresser.
They aren’t really talking about the same person at all.
God had to find a way to let us know who he really is.
That’s why God chose Abraham.God TOLD Abraham who he was.Abraham and his family became God’s “Chosen People.” It’s not that they were better than anyone else. No, God chose them not because they were so great, but because God is so great.
God chose Abraham and his family to show us who he really is.
When God blessed them with good things, we see that God is good.
When God punished them, we learn what God thinks is right and what he thinks is wrong.
When we hear the stories of the things God has done, that’s how we know that God is real.
That’s how we know who God is.
But even more important than that, through all the stories of Abraham and his family we come to know Jesus.
We come to know that Jesus really IS God's son, and that he came to earth to make a way for us to live with God forever. And that's what everything in heaven and earth is all about.
It's all about just how much God loves us!

My future laptop

I am not sure yet about the laptop that I will buy soon. I really want Fujitsu one but I cannot because the price is up now. I don't know how much is it? So I need to try to find the new one now. I don’t want to get Acer but if no way that I can find good one for me I need to get it. Why it’s so difficult to find good laptop in the good price. Maybe tomorrow I will change my mind again…

God is in control

I hope that Pii A+ will finish everything today. We helped him to put the picture last night. On Tuesday we help him to set the room for presentation. I’m still tried today because I slept late last night again. This morning I had to wake up early because I had a stomachache. So I couldn’t wake up. I came to school late. I still feel not very good now. Today I think I will not sleep late, not more than 11 pm. God please take care of your money that I have now, I don’t want to spend all my money. I wan to keep some too. I pray for Pii Rujira’s family they will understand each other more. I don’t know what I should do with her husband; I don’t want to talk to him again. He will call me again and I don’t know I will be brave enough to say that I don’t want to talk with him or not. But Father please helps me find the best way to deal with this problem. I know for you it’s nothing that you cannot do because God is in control.

Constantine!!!

Image of the Hell in Constantine Movie
"My name is John Constantine"
Last night I went to see Constantine. I think the thing that I get from this movie is more image of the hell. That makes me scare of the hell. I don't want to go to the hell. It's look hot and confuse. Today is Tuesday already. I don't know why the time passes so fast. It seems to be better with my emotion and my feeling. I have joy and peace more in my heart. I can wake up earlier at the right time and I have breakfast almost every morning. So that because of You, God… You always blessed me so much.
I just got the sad news. I just want everyone to pray for Christopher and P’Boom. They lost their baby. God please comfort them.

Let's have a trip!

So cheap!!
I found this banner on the internet; it’s so cheap for next month. I really want to go somewhere, but I don’t have planned to go to Bangkok in next month. I have planed to go to Pai in next month. Let’s see will my dream come true? I need the Laptop. I have to work at home. God please let my dad to give me the laptop that I can pay him later.

 

I need You,Lord

I think I need to have quite time every day. Sometime I spend time with myself too much. That’s not good because I feel good to just stay by myself and after that I just lost my time too much with that. Yesterday I got the excuse to be away from people and from you too. I just told myself that I’m so tried; I need to take the rest. I should to spend time with you not with the TV. I should control myself. Dear God, Please help me to have self control. I know that right now our relationship has the space. And now it’s getting bigger when I didn’t spend time with you. I didn’t have time that is my excuse for me. Father please forgives me. I will try again. When I didn’t have enough time to spend with You, the sins just getting closer to me. I need You, You always forgive me. Help me to love You more.

Nothing!!

My skin still pills off from my face. It's so annoy me. I went to see doctor last Saturday and I think that because the weather. The weather here is so weird. In the morning it's cold, in the afternoon it's hot and at night it's hot. It's all dry weather now. It makes my skin dry and pill off. I feel sick because of the weather today. Now I read personality plus, it’s a Christian book. And I really like it. When I read this book, it makes me to know myself and others more. I’m so tried from yesterday. I need to work now…

Happy MK !

I'm still very full from lunch. We went to eat at MK Suki. It was my choice. I'm so happy to be here and to be the youngest in my office. Today I almost have done with the wire chart but Keith’s not coming back in time. So the questions that I have to ask him before finish it, I couldn't make it. I will ask him tomorrow.
I got the message from P'Gade that P'Robert is in hospital right now. I don’t know what’s wrong with him but I pray that You will take care of him, I trust in you that You will look over him.
Yesterday I met uncle Ream in front of the church. He looks weaker than the past. I feel sorry for him. So if anyone has read this please pray for him and pray that God will help us to know which the best way to help him.
Yesterday I went to help P’Air with her computer. I just helped her to manage the files on her computer. She said she will give me the free ticket for world club. Is that great?
Emm…It’s almost Sunday; I mean I have to find the lesson to teach for the children class. I didn’t find anything yet. I will tried to find it now on the internet.

Need to Pray

It is have nothing interested for this morning. Last night it was the blessed night for our cell group. We got 16 people came to our cell group. Is that possible? Yes! We really got 16 people. We have David, Jum, Larry, Rebecca, Russ, Joshua, Onli, Steve, Gade, Wee, Tad, Peung(M), Rujira, Mam, Eyui and me. That’s a lot. After cell group I went to drop P’Gade at her house. Misty, Tim and Ryan are in Phuket right now. They went there yesterday to help. And P’Gade and P’David are thinking what they should do because they need them too. But both of them know that in her need them too. So we have to pray for them to know God’s will. I still have nothing to teach in this Sunday. Should I find some? I think I should. But if P’Gade goes to Phuket in this week, I will get the stress for this week for sure. But I’m not really wanted to force her to stay here; I know that she really want to go there. I think I can do it, but you need to help me, God..

Many days passed

The Best News
I didn't post for a long time. Many things are going on right now. P'Neung got baptize last Sunday. That is the great news. I'm so glad that God answer our prayer because we prayed that we need girls then God send us a sweet girl. May God bless P'Neung life to walk beside you always. I think I spend time by myself too much, sometime it's make myself feel good but sometime it's make myself feel not good. So I think if it's too much, it's not good. Yesterday it's valentine day, morning and afternoon I spent time by myself. I think that's good time for me. In the evening, actually I just wanted to update my web journal but I met Neung there. I mean I met him online. So we went to eat together till 11 pm. That's fun. But I really want him to know God to know Jesus. I will pray for him more that he will open his mind and want to change his life. Please let him know that the true happiness is from you not from the thing from this world. Last night when I went back I was a little bit tried because we went to eat in many places. I think if I do like this for many days, I will get fat for sure.
I saw Finding Neverland yesterday. That's the cool movie, I like it. It's about the author of Peter pan. It’s telling us about how he got the idea to write Peter pan in the Neverland.
On last Sunday I taught in the children class and I felt so bad. We have 4 new kids there and they are so ... I don't know how to say. They are not obeying at all. They are Thai kids and they talked all the time. So next week we think we will separate the class but we don't have the idea yet what the lesson that we should do. That's hard job I cannot do it for sure if I no have You, Lord.

Busy all this morning!

I came up a little bit late because I woke up late. I got the great news. P'Neung will get baptise on Sunday. Is that cool? I'm so glad to hear that. Last night I was chatting with my friend about the new cover of the vision book but I didn't get any thing back. When Heather and Julia came back, they brought the great new form P'David house. P'Neung decided to get baptise on Sunday. I'm so happy to hear that.
This morning the problem came up about the computer and the printer but it's work now. So that's made my day gone so fast because when I finished that it's time for lunch already. That's good though. I'm so sleepy now. Not very much work to do now. Tomorrow they will have funeral JD here at Grace. That's sad.
Tomorrow is Saturday again. I mean the holiday again. I got the rose, I don't think that I would. Ben told me that I have to train the staff here how to scan the virus on their divice. Emm...that's interesting. Let's see how can I do it.

 

Back to work!

I got a new friend name Nong Frame. She just 4 years old. She's so cute. I played with her lastnight. It was fun!! I got the sad news from Bruce about a student, his name is JD. He's in the 2nd Grade. I felt from the waterfall last Saturday and the doctor said he's not sure that this boy can alive or not. Heavenly Father, You know better than the doctor, You know how to help this kid. So please help him and we're just human, we know that we cannot do anything but we can pray and we know that you listen to us always. Please help to heal him with you precious hands. In Jesus name,
Lastnight I couldn't sleep well. I don't know why. I just think a lots about many things. I want to help like the children ministry. I love to be with the kids. Actually I just really know that yesterday. I don't know how can I do that but I just want to pray that God will open the way for me. I don't know this is Your will or not. Please answer my prayer.
Sad news came to me this afternoon. He pass away. God brought him back to the haven. That's sad...
My Father, please taking care of his family. I know that they will be so sad but You said You will be close to the people who are broken heart. They need you to comfort them so much.
Today I have not much to do at my work. My boss's not here yet, I think he's in Bangkok now. And Sam's not here too. He's in Bangkok.

Day for Rest or Day for Drive!

I woke up very early yesterday to went to Doi Suthap. P'Gade and KJ went with me. That's a good trip. And we came back around 11.30 am. After that we went to Kad Suan Kaew to have lunch. We went to drop KJ at the train station around 5.15pm. I didn't like driving at that time, everyone just drive so crazy. It's made me drive crazy too. So I got stress at that time. But After I pray God gave me more joy and more peace. We have cellgroup at Russ and Rebecca's Apartment. We got 12 people, that's amazing. We got P'David, Rebecca, Russ, Joshua, P'Gade, P'Jum, P'Numphueng, P'Mink, P'Rujira, N'Ploy, Kanoon and me. I naver think that we will have more than 10 people in our cell group. That's very blessed form God in this new year.
We got more students for children class now. God have blessed us so much. Thank you Lord. Please continue to bless us to make the best class now.
Today I woke up so late around 11.45 am. But I feel more energy now. I designed that I will buy the digital camera soon. I'm going to have time with You now, Lord....

Monday for rest!

This morning I have the great thing. Nong Amphorn came to visit us at the church. Is that good? I didn't aspect that she will miss us or she will come to visit. But I prayed for long time but God just brought her here. Thank God my father, You always know what we need. Please bring her again, please make her to think of us and want to hang out with us again. And You know that today I'm here so You just brought her here, right? You know the right time for everyone.
I made the decision that I won't go to Pai tomorrow. It's not worth enough. I don't think I won't go to anywhere that far away form here. Actually I'm really sad that I cannot go. But if this what you really want me to do I will. I know that everyone just been really happy that I'm not going. So I don't know that I will go somewhere or not for tomorrow.
I got the email form Darby. I miss her so much....
Please Father, give me joy and peace...

Sunday.... Day for You,Lord.

I felt not good this morning. I woke up a bit late but not really just later that I though. The door broke this morning because the skit. So sorry that I didn't spend time with you yet. I will pray before go to sleep, I hope. Today is tried day for me. I want to sleep but I couldn't. I went to walking street tonight and then I get more tried. It's like right now my eyes almost close. But I just want to tried something before I sleep.
For the sermon this morning I think I didn't concentrate because I couldn't get the point. I don't know... Maybe just me that cannot get the point. Today is the first day for Revolation book. I think I have to tried harder.
I think I can go to Pai, right? We have the new member to go to Pai. But I don't know that he will go or not but I pray that he can go with me.
Dear havenly Father,
I really want to go to Pai and if You're not really want me to go, I will not to go but I will be very sad. So please let me go and protect me to go there and come back here safely. I love you and I pray all of this in Jesus name.

The day for rest!

I could wake up late this morning. So I woke up a little bit late this morning. But that made me have more energy for today. I had the appointment with P'Gade and Misty for lunch about the children class. So we planed that we will teach them about Acts for maybe two or three months. That's good. And for tomorrow we will have like the field trip like the outdoor study. I think that we will have like the picnic for class tomorrow. That will be the fun thing to do, right?
Lastnight Tisha went back to the state that the sad part for yesterday. Event though I know her just a little bit but I felt sad too. She cried and her friends cried. But every thing gonna be allright. She gone because her boyfriend is going to the war in Iraq soon. She need to went back to spend time with her boyfriend. That's sweet... God please help her to have the great time with her boyfriend and her family there.
It's almost valentine but I still have no idea what should for valentine party. The theme is the twin. Is that difficult to think?
I went to see the movie at CMU MAD tonight. The movie names "CUBE". It's good but a little bit serious. I think this movie make me to think a lots. I have to think that what the things that movie want me to know. But it's difficult to explain. I ate just the Roti for dinner. I hope I won't getting bore with the food again. But now I just don't want to eat. I know that's bad but I just cannot help myself. (to force myself to eat...It's no way to do that.)
God please help me... I really want to go to Pai. I planed for long time. Please open the way that I can go on Tuesday. Make me have the save trip to go and to come back. I really want to go, please.....

Feeling at work place today

This morning I felt a little bit tried when I was wake up. I don't know why I wake up very hard always. I really want to wake up more early and spend time with God. I know that will be the great start in every morning if I do that. So this morning it's start not good because I couldn't not wake up at 6am. This morning I did something, didn't I? Oh yes! I learned how to check the daily record with Ben and now I can do it on my own. I think my boss still sick, so he didn't come yet. I pray that You will help Keith to get better soon, please help to heal him by Your hand.
Yes! He came. I think God answered my pray so quickly. I learned some new stuff today. That's very good because I won't get bore today. Little bit busy but it's better that others day. I ready to have long holidays. Yeah! no one have but me. Praise the Lord! I have the plan for long time to t go to Pai, I wish that I can go for real. I invited P'Jeab to go with me because I really want her to take a rest. Eventhrough it's just the short trip. May God help me to prepare the way to go there. And please prepare the people who are going with me too. I don't know that will anybody go with me or not. But God please make it happen in my days off.

Graduatation day

My graduation day
It was been the tried days for me that week. But I finished all! That's make me really happy.