Your will Not My will

I lose my weight again, I couldn’t believe that. I just not really eat for one day but I lost weight for 2 kgs. That’d not good. I still confuse now but everything is getting better. I think God just want me to be patient wait for His answer even though it’s hurt for me now. I don’t know why it happened to me and I never think this feeling will happen to me. I already have wall for this situation. God please fill peace in me and I want the relationship to be just the same in the past but it’s up to your will, Lord. Not my will!! Not what I want.