How cute our kids are...

I'm sorry

I have to do many things after I finish my work today. I’m a little bit excited about driving to Phare on Friday. It is 201 Kilometers. I think it will tale 3-4 hours to drive there. Last week I felt weird about something. I don’t know how to explain that feeling. I felt sad and upset and I wanted to cry but I didn’t. I didn’t want to feel like that because I knew that is sin. I don’t think that that person will know my feeling at that time. I just want to say sorry to You. I will try to do not feel like that again. I need to think like what others want not what I want. Because if I think like what I want that will be the selfishness. Father, you’ve said you always love us and even though I did something wrong and I confess to you. You will forgive me.
Thank you, God for loving me and always be by my side.

No time to get away from people

Last night we had the bridal shower for Pii Ning, who’s going to get marriage next Saturday. It’s like Thai style for this party. The bridal shower for real, it’s not like this. The best part that I really liked last night was the food. Pii Mink is the best chef for me. The foods that she made last night are so great. That was good last night. At R&R’s house have many things Ginger and Heather got back to stay at their house. I think I need to move so Pii Boom has asked me to stay with her. I will stay with her for a while and they will have some people come to sleep over at her house on Friday. That’s funny, when I tried to get away from people then more people come up. Is this from God? He might teach me now how to stay with people. I know that I cannot do like this if I want to work with the church because I have to stay with people.
Another problem that I've found is “Why am I forgetful like this?” I’ve found my thumb drive in my backpack. I thought I lost it somewhere else.

Something really changed

I think now it has something changed a little bit in my life. That’s good for me. When we confess our sin more that make us like not holding everything by ourselves and for me I feel like some one help me to get through this together.

Normal for today

I’m moving around again now. The reason is the church has no water. I don’t know that good or not but I’m at R&R’s house. I might be able to make the relationship with Nakita now. She is the a little bit mean fat cat. I tried to be friend with her but she doesn’t want to have any friend. I feel tried every day I got back from work. I think there are many things to do. I didn’t finish all things yet but soon. There was the rumor about the flash flood will come to our school yesterday. I don’t know who did that first but that was something that I don’t like. But I have to forgive him and pray for him, right? Because he doesn’t know what he did? Lots of traffic now for the graduation ceremony week. That make me didn’t go to join CMU cellgroup last night.

Flood in Chiang Mai

I didn’t update this blog for long time. I’m a little bit busy at the school. Today is the third day of school. I want to blog about the flood in Chiang Mai. It happened on Sunday 14th August. That was impossible for the resident here. Because they been here for 30 – 40 years, they said they’ve not see the flood in Chiang Mai before. I think like that too but it happened. The flash flood was come from the Ping River with lot of water. I passed the super highway road on that day. That was a mess and water is brown. Everything is all right now. The flood left much dirt in all the building that it passed. Many people now have to clean up their home or their shop. I want to pray that God will give them joy and peace now because some of them lose many things.

That was nice and fun!

I went to the Mae-Ngud dam with my friends from my work place. Actually I didn't expect that I could go there. I just decided immediately around 11 am. and I heard that they would leave around 12 at noon. My boss told me I should go with them and I didn't want to just leave the school because if someone has problem with the computer then who will help them. So I decided to stay and let my boss went there and I will follow him but finally we waited till we could contact to my Thai boss to ask for permission then we went together. That was fun and very relax over there. I glad that I could go there. We were in the middle of a lot of mountains around us. Is that cool? I want to go there again. That made me need to have the digital camera soon...
It's rainning all day!!

Clear Jring Jring!

Yes! Finally it's clear!
I saw this picture and I think about when I die, Will I be like this man? Sometime when I think about the sins those I’ve been doing will make me far away from God. That’s so true. When we do something that is sin and we don’t want to think about God because we don’t want God at that time. I don’t want to do that. I always hate myself when I did something that I know that God doesn’t like me to do that. I am sad after I done it. Right now I try to hate the thing that I did before and think that’s disgusting. That’s work! That’s make me don’t want to do it anymore. So I know that it because the way I think. In the past I always though that if I did some think wrong, God will forgive me and He always has mercy on me. But now when I think that God is so high and I’m just a human down here on the earth and if I did something wrong that will make the space between me and God getting bigger and we won’t see each other again. Thank you, God that you always waiting for me even though sometime I just don’t want to see You but You just wait for me that same place. That always because of me makes us to be far away.
In this Summer I want to thank you so much that you use one of my friends to draw me close to you. The way that I took care of her that make me grow and make me to pray more. School almost starts, that make me a little bit scare because many things have to be done. God help me please!

Something clearly!

I think it’s just nothing! I didn’t feel like that for real. I think because of many things going on that made me confused. Now I’m fine but tried because thinking too much. I've talked to Lisa last night. That made me think about to go to study in the state more now. I want o have a master degree. I don’t know what my dad will say but I really want too. Let’s pray about that. Yes, some time it's really hard to think about the future that we cannot see. But if we think about the people that didn't know God and didn't know how to trust in Him they will be think harder than us. I want everyone to know God. Last night was so good, three people got buptize. Nong Nui and the couple who we just met last night. Is that cool? I will post the picture in a few days. I want to have the digital camera so bad!!

Your will Not My will

I lose my weight again, I couldn’t believe that. I just not really eat for one day but I lost weight for 2 kgs. That’d not good. I still confuse now but everything is getting better. I think God just want me to be patient wait for His answer even though it’s hurt for me now. I don’t know why it happened to me and I never think this feeling will happen to me. I already have wall for this situation. God please fill peace in me and I want the relationship to be just the same in the past but it’s up to your will, Lord. Not my will!! Not what I want.